Saddest moments in life...

Hi friends,

 

The clock is ticking. I can't wait for the end of the semester. I just hope I will pass everything. Just one little more push right? Anyways, here are the 5 sadest moments in my life which is a contrast to last post. Again, there's no particular order...but in chronological order.

 

- My mom scolded me for some reasons when I was 5. Maybe my mom asked me to do something and I didn't do it. Anyways, she explained to me that I must learn how to do things such as washing the dishes and helping around instead of just playing with my plus toys. Then, she told me that she won't be around forever. I asked her 'what do you mean you won't be here forever?'. She then explained that she will die one day. What is death? I saw that in tv and movies how people die but I thought that the concept was pure fiction and it didn't exist. She told me that one day she won't be by my side anymore so I have to learn to survive in case she can't take care of me anymore. That's when I panicked and began to cry. I asked if she is going to die soon and she just said no and hugged me.

 

- My second saddest moment was when my aunt passed away which was probably about 3 years ago. There wasn't any warning or anyting. I knew absolutely nothing. It was a snowy day in February and I was going to class that evening. My mom called me and said to me that she passed away 3 days ago. A family friend just called to give us the information. For those who don't know the deep story of my family, you wouldn't know how difficult the situation was to me. I won't be able to talk to her anymore. I will never hear her voice anymore. I won't be able to hug her anymore. It's all too late. After that event, I did things differently. Whatever I happen, I forgive, I help without wanting something in return, I do nothing out of anger, ...I did only good and have no regrets. I loved and respected my aunt and but she was not nice at one point. After a while she indirectly asked for forgiveness but I was always relunctant to forgive her. I wish I did because I felt terrible aterwards. I just hope she can rest peacefully now.

 

-The next hardest and sad moment was to deal with my break up. I remember the first week of it and I thought I was going to die. How am I going to survive this? I dated this guy for 10 years no signs of cheating nor breaking apart. Then one day, the shit just hapenned. I was in denial. I do find it funny now because I did begged both of them, ex and his mistress, to stop this madness. I also typed an reasearched on google ways to get my ex back. After a week, I no other choices but to accept when he told me to kindly fuck off. It took me about 3 months to completely recover. I am so thankful that I had school to focus on. Otherwise, all I could do would be to focus on my ex. I would go crazy. Well, I'm single and waiting for the next guy now! :D Now guess who wants to get back with me? lol I don't need to say more than this. He will wait in the next afterlife if we are fated to be together.

 

-One sad moment I had was last week. We had a call from an organization. They asked if there was anything we don't need anymore such as old clothings and toys. So I went to my closet and gave away clothes I didn't like. My mom came to me and said hat I should give away my toys. :/ I didn't want to give them away. I know I'm now to old to play with them but those are souvenirs from when I was little. It was very nostalgic. Anyways, I gave them away. I kept a few things though but I gave away 85% of my animal plushes. It's as if I gave something away from me. I don't know. :/ Alright! I know those were only plushes but I'm sad about it! OK!!??? D:

 

- This is probably the biggest challenge and saddest thing I have to go through. It's that I have to accept how today's society is. What I mean is that I lived in a fairy tail for a long time. Everything was fine! Nothing will happen to me. THIS won't happen to me and then BAM! It just hapenned. Be it death, break ups, or whatever, you don't know when it will happen. But when the event happens, it hits you hard! Really hard! I've talked to a friend last month. We talked about relationships and I told her that you never when crap happens. She told me to not be to negative about it and that her marriage of 1 year is doing well. Of course everything is ok in the short term but what about the long term? What will happen in 20 years? I mean, I'm not saying that it's all the end of the world and that something bad will happen. I just want to be aware that anything can happen and I must be prepared emotionally. Anyways, I got many calls from friends lately about their break ups, marriage failure, etc. It's now a common thing.

 

The post is done and I hope to have something more interesting to tell you guys about my life. There isn't much since all I do is staying home studying. Have a nice weekend! :D