Wednesday, October 30, 2013

New worry!


Dear friends,

 

I apologize for the long wait. I studied the entire week for this morning exam. I was doing homework, read classnotes, redid last semester’s exam the teacher has put for practice, I did what was possible. What is it I didn’t do? So the night before the exam, I was like: “I’m ready! Bring it on!”. So I went to the classroom this morning and there it is. The moment of truth!!! But you see, there’s a twist just right there. When I was all in joy and crap, the teacher thought to himself: “Let’s do something different this time. The students probably  used last semester’s exam as practice. So let’s make it this exam special where these questions cannot be found in homeworks nor last semester’s exam. I am going to have fun to watch them in pain during the examination. Oh yeah! Take that bitches!”

 

So guess what happened? It wasn’t what I expected. I thought it will go smoothly but no. So during 3 hours in a half, it was total panic for everyone. I witnessed students being in misery such as:

 

-students sighing

-students silently cursing at the computer screen when typing a code doesn’t work

-students endlessly trying to find a hint in the notes (it was an open book exam)

-students doing gestures suggesting “What the fuck? Why isn’t it working?”

 

So most of them struggled the same way as I did before. I panicked a little but it wasn’t impossible to do. 3 hours and a half was just the perfect time for me. If it was just 5 more seconds, I could correct a minor error I’ve found last minute. But seriously, it was ok for me because it is my second time repeating this class. Otherwise, this would be mad hard. Damn!

 

This makes me nervous. I am at the end of my degree and I forgot almost everything I have learned since the beginning except for the repetitive basics. Anything that I don’t put into practice, I will just forget about it. I don’t know what is going to happen. Then, I will have to work in this field and I don’t even have self confidence. This program is just total madness. Maybe I’m just scared of things I can’t see in the future or anything which is unknown to me. I am scared of anything which is new. Anything which relates on how people are expecting from me makes me nervous. But maybe it’s just a normal process. I was scared of high school when I was in elementary school. I thought it was too big and that I would probably get lost but it was ok and I made many friends. When it came about my first job, I was scared the shit out of me. Will I be ok? Will my boss be satisfied with my work? It was like this for every part time job I had. At the end, it always turns out well and I always get along with everyone unless the people I work with are total bullies. My ex-boss was a bully but this will be a story I will write about another time.

 

When I went to the first welcome meeting for new students in actuarial science, the principle gave us warmth with a smile and told us that only 1 on every 3 students will graduate. Here I am! I am one of these people who’s almost there. Damn, I still feel insecure. If I make one mistake, this could be bad for the company. So it definitely gives me more pressure. Maybe it’s because of Sue who gives me all her working experience which scares me. I should stop thinking about this and take one step at the time. Right?

 

On top of that, I am still sick and coughing. FML!

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Ruinning the romantic vibe

Dear friends,

I hope you had a great week. I am in class at the moment...I know I should listen to the teacher talking but I'll be fine. I didn't even plan to come to class today but since I was already awake early this morning, I decided to not skip anymore. Oh I only skipped...two classes so far! ;)

I am at the back of the classroom and nobody is beside me nor behind me. I am glad it is the case and I'll explain why. So while the teacher was talking, I was like "Hey! Let's post something in my blog.". The problem is that I can't remember the exact website for my blog. What I usually do is to find it in my favourite list and just click on it. But since I'm at school, I had to do otherwise which is searching on google. So I just typed key words like "ladyxgloria blogspot". To be honest, I was a little in shock because it wasn't what I expected. There was tons of links related to my blog while I was just expecting 1 link. Anyways, I just clicked on the first link up there which took me right away to my website. Next thing I did was to check the views of my website and apparently there was a website called "ourmeet.com" or something like that viewving my website. O.o So I clicked on it. You must wonder why I did it. The answer is pretty simple...curiosity. So I clicked on that link and a pop up appeared. Guess what was on the pop up! A naked woman!!! A NAKED WOMAN!!! O_O Oh my goodness! What is this some kind bot or hacking website to promote porn???  My facial was literally like this " O_O " for a second. I just find it hilarious. While the teacher was trying to explain how to find the area under a certain function/curve on the graph and wise and good students are paying close attention to the explanations, a pop up of a naked woman appeared on a certain pc screen of a student. lol I just closed it immediately. I swear I thought these school computer blocking such stuff. So this means you can do anything you want at school. Damn! O-O I am glad nobody saw it.

Anyways, that was just a side story to what I wanted to write about. I wanted to talk about my dad. We don't really have a super close relationship and I don't think we will have a good one in the future. In my life, he is one of the most annoying person I can't rid off because he's my dad. He'd just annoy me big time and is over-dramatic over stupid things. It's a good thing that we don't live under the same roof.

So I was on my way for work that day. I got out from the subway and was about to catch the bus but since I had an hour before my shift begins, I decided to go at a nearby convenience store to buy a product for my hair. On my way there, I saw my dad talking to a woman. My first thought was "Urgh...Let's just walk past him and pretend I didn't see him.". But who is that woman? I stopped walking and began to think. She looks like my dad's new girlfriend. He showed a picture once but I never met her. So you know what? I am going to take a step back and figure out who she is. :D

I walked back and just stood behind the woman smiling at my dad. It took at least 5 seconds for him to realize I was standing there.

Dad: :O!!! Oh Sweetheart! *drags me away from that woman...at least 7 meters away*
Me: What are you doing? Your friend is alone.
Dad: How are you?
Me: I am fine...
Dad: What are you doing here?
Me: going to work
Dad: That's not the right direction.
Me: I know...I wanted to buy shampoo first.
Dad: But you can also buy at your work.
Me: But I want to go at that store. Why?
Dad: oh..it's...nothing.
Me: *looks at the lady* Your friend has been waiting for a while now. You should go back to her. I have to go anyways.

So he hugged me goodbye and we went separated ways. What's the rush? Did I interrupt a romantic mood? :D hehe Have a great week! Due to my exam next wednesday, you might have to wait thursday or so for a new post. Take care! :)

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

3 x Trouble = 3 Trouble = Trouble + Trouble + Trouble

Dear friends,
 
Today is one of those days I just want to stay home and just do absolutely nothing. The reason is because it’s one of those days when my head isn’t feeling right, my nose is stuffy, my throat hurts, and my forehead so hot that we could fry an egg on it.
 
So I pretty much canceled most of my plans and even skipped school today. I know it’s something I shouldn’t have done but I’m really not feeling to hot right now. L Besides that, our teacher decided to have a class from 9am to 2pm. Noooo thank you! I’m definitely sick! ;O But seriously, I do my homework and readings so I am not really behind. I didn’t even planned on writing a post until I got a message from my friend Roma. His message was something like: “Whenever I want to procrastinate, I read your blog. Thank you for that!” HAHA XD So it reminded me that it’s about time I keep the rhythm of posting.
 
Anyways, I have lots of stuff to do when my health will be back on track. I need to buy a round pair of earrings. I hate those where the end is kind of pointy and pokes the back of my ears. It’s really not comfortable when I am sleeping on the side. On top of that, I went to a wedding last month and I didn’t wear earrings for almost a year because I’m super lazy and I just don’t want to wear diamond earrings casually like that. So guess what happened when I came back home and removed my earrings when the wedding was done! There was blood. @_@ Oh dear! So I guess the exit hole got closed somehow and I kind of burst it open when I inserted my earring. Ouch!
 
As for work, things cannot get any worse than what it is. The only good thing about work is the company of Eli. But else than that, things are doing very nice. Usually there could be 1 of these 3 main problems: the boss, co-workers, or customers. In my case, it is all three.
 
1.       Let’s begin with my boss. I have to say this…..she is difficult to deal with. When I say difficult, I really mean it. She just says inappropriate things and she can be super moody at random moments. I was working with her that day. Just before she was going to leave, she said: “I’m so tired of ****** people.” So there is a reason here why I inserted stars instead of the exact word she said because it refers to a certain group of people and I don’t want people who read this feel offended or hurt if they are part of that group or culture people.
 
Boss: I’m so tired of ****** people.
Me: What!?
Boss: *repeats the same word while a customer was there*
Me: *pretends to not hear and serve the customer*
Boss: *is waiting a reply from me*
Me: *Shit! What do I say???* Why? What happened?
Boss: One of those people almost ran their car into mine this morning. Those people shouldn’t be given their license.
Customer: I absolutely agree with you.
Me: *what the heck!!???* Well, if one doesn’t drive well, it doesn’t mean that their entire nation is the same.
Boss: I don’t care. I just don’t want to see them.
 
Are you serious? Like it wasn’t enough, she is moody just as mentioned above. One of the co-workers told me that our boss got into a fight with a customer and then she sort of put her anger on her. Our boss later explained to her that it was due to when she was bullied back in elementary school. This is really fucked up. I must imagine that she suffered a lot. Apparently, she even hurt herself or something along that line. I know this is hard for her but you just can’t bring your emotional problems at work. It really sucks. My co-worker didn’t do anything and she got blasted at. It really ruins the friendly working environment. Damn I feel nervous when I work around her. My boss is not very talkative lately and I try to not pry into her private life. On the other hand, I really want to help her but she’s my boss. I don’t know. Something tells me that I should mind my own business.
 
2.       Second problem is related to my new-coworker. It’s not really a problem but it’s more of something that annoys me. I replace my new co-worker on Fridays afternoon. Her shifts at 5pm and I start at 4 pm. I actually love being around her. She is bubbly and nice. She’s fun to be around. However, she is a hot mess when it comes to work. So each of us have our batch of lottery and some files. Eli told me to always keep stuff tidy and organize. So we usually use elastic to keep the lottery together. I have to admit that it is pleasant to the eyes. But when it comes to this new girl, when the clock hits 5pm her attitude is like: “Screw this! My shift is done! I got to go.” I completely understand how she feels. Sometimes I even stay 20 minutes overtime to finish filling up some files and documents. So it can be frustrating. So that day I started earlier than 4pm so she could her cashier sooner and have more time to fill the documents. At 5h10, she was still counting and things didn’t balance out really well. So I just told her to leave because her shift is done and I’ll fix her papers IF there are no customers. She left and 30 minutes before I am closing, I had 5 minutes to spare on her papers. As soon as I opened her batch, everything is a fucking mess!!! @_@ It was as if she literally threw all the papers and lottery into garbage. I had a choice to tidy up for her or not. If I do, nothing much will happen…except for things being cleaner. If I just leave and ignore this mess, she will be scolded by the boss. So guess what I did! I didn’t fix her paper because of lack of time but I did tidy up. I thought that she will probably repeat this again and she will be scolded eventually. So last shift, her batch is now tidier. Did someone got scolded? ;)
 
3.       Last problem is about customers. This is a big problem because this lady comes every single day to buy her lottery. =_= Eli asked me to replace her because of an overload of homework and I accepted. So there I was at job on a beautiful Sunday. When we work alone for an enire day, we are allowed to have 60 minutes of break. So it was 12h50, I was hungry, and I was on my week of the month. On top of that, there were no more loonies in the cashier machine. That’s a problem.  So I put the panel on saying “Back in 30 minutes!”. I went to buy my lunch but the line was extremely long. Anyways, it took me 30 minutes to buy my food and eat. Then, I had to take an extra 10 minutes to get some change for my cashier machine and to go to the washroom. When I headed back to my shop, there was an old lady waiting and glaring at me. Oh great!
 
Old hag: You took more than 30 minutes to take your break. You are supposed to be working by now.
 
Me: *it would be too much pains in the ass explain and I’m sure she wouldn’t care anyways…looks at my watch and it’s 1h30 or 1h35* I’m allowed to take 60 minutes of break. So what’s the problem?
 
Old hag: You took more than 30 minutes and you are not allowed to do this. You lost many customers while you were gone. I’m going to make complaint to your boss and you are going to lose your job.
 
Trust me on this, I am super easy going but when it comes to threats, I’m not putting up with that. I angrily get inside the shop and unlock all the stuff.
 
Me: That’s fine by me. Go complain to my boss she will be working tomorrow morning.
 
Old hag: Give me your name. How do you want me to complain if I don’t know your name?
 
Me: My name is Gloria.
 
Old hag: What?
 
Me: I’m Gloria.
 
Old hag: You will have to write it down because I won’t remember.
 
I swear my hands were trembling. I really wanted to smack her down. I grabbed some paper, wrote my name on it.
 
Old hag: Alright, forget about it. I’ll give you a second chance.
 
I just ignore her and give her the paper.
 
Old hag: No. I won’t make any complaints. I said I’ll give you a second chance.
 
Me: No I insist. Go complain to my boss. I’m not scared of losing my job. Please go see her tomorrow morning.
 
So the old hag just walks away. I was about to swear and call her a bitch out loud but I was able to control my mouth. I swear that if it wasn’t job or school related, I would probably jump on her and just pull her hair out. Anyways, before you start threatening someone, try to put yourself in my shoe. I have problems to deal with the cashier machine, I got papers to fill, I have to be focused when I am calculating the total to the clients because we don’t have a decent machine that automatically calculate, and if I get money missing at the end, I’m in deep shit. Threatening someone is not helping the cause and I just can’t concentrate anymore. What’s more to this, the old hag came back and forth to buy her stuff.
 
I‘m usually super friendly and warm to every customers but this is just too much. Anyways, I told my boss about the situation in case the old hag really goes complain and she appears to be on my side and even praised me for letting the old hag walk over me. I just felt really disgusted by how I was threatened. Next shift I was working, I was friendly and warm as always but every time that old woman comes, I say nothing. She just tells me what she wants and I give her stuff with the change. No greetings and no goodbyes. She can kiss my ass. I think she noticed because she tries to joke around with me afterwards and asks me how I’ve been doing. I just answer her questions and I serve the next customer.
 
So those are days working with addicted gamblers. Have a nice week and thanks for reading my rant.

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Sneaking out from assistant!

Dear friends,
I know it has been a while I didn’t post anything. A part of me is lazy and the second part is my laptop being always occupied by my mom. Again, the basement is STILL under construction so she uses my laptop which is my only computer with an internet connection.
Anyways, lots of stuff happened at school, work, …you name it. I even forget some events I wanted to write about but it’s nothing dramatic…when it comes to personal renting right? So I’ve been trying to study very hard. Please note that I was “trying”. I mean I just have one class and work twice a week so I mostly go shopping during my spare time and spend the little money I make. Well, it’s mostly window shopping recently with mom. Ok…back to the topic, you know I am repeating the same class as last summer right? Well guess what! We have a teacher and his assistant. Now, the job of this assistant is to help students with homework and answer their questions. It is as simple as that. So the teacher gives lectures from 9am to noon and the assistant comes at noon and finishes at 2pm.
The problem consist that the assistant is the same as last summer. Can you believe that? I know you guy think this is not a big deal. But come on!!! This is totally embarrassing to me. @_@ I do not want him to know I fail!!! On top of that, he is a high school friend!!! =_= Like this wasn’t enough, this guy begin his studies 1 year after I started and he is a super assistant not only of that class but also 2 others. Anyways, I didn’t want him to see me. So last Wednesday, me and my friend were just looking at out watch. As soon as it was noon, we’re out of here.
The clock was ticking and it was finally noon but since one class was canceled, the teacher decided to take an extra 10 minutes. What a bliss!!! As soon as the teacher finished, my friend disappeared. Oh great!!! She is faster than me. I rush to the exit and once I put my foot outside the classroom, our dear assistant was there leaning on the wall near the door with his arms crossed. As soon as we get this eye contact, he gives me this big smile. In my mind, I was like : “Ah shit!”. What the heck am I suppose to do? I can’t just ignore him because we were high school mates. I look at my friend upstairs and she waves at me to hurry. Oh dear…
Me: *smiles* Hey! How are you?
Him: I’m doing great! :D *looks very happy*
Me: *you know what, maybe I should be honest about this* I’m glad to hear that. As for me, I failed summer class and I am repeating it again.
Him: Aww don’t worry! You will pass this time for sure.
Me: How about you? Are you done with the degree?
Him: Yeah! *timidly* I’m doing master.
 
At this point, it was super embarrassing. Can you believe that? @_@ He started after me and he is doing his master already!!?? ;O I couldn’t help myself but to cover my face with both hands. I swear I didn’t want to do it but it was a reflex. How do I recover from this? Did he noticed I was embarrassed?
 Me: Oh! I am soo happy for you! Congratulations!!! ….:)
Him: hehe thanks! That’s nothing big though. :3
 
Are you serious? D: But honestly, I was truly glad for him. That’s the truth from the bottom of my heart. I just didn’t want him to know that I failed. T.T I would rather meet him elsewhere than me sneaking out of class. Lol. Seriously, I really appreciated that he didn’t make fun of me or bring me down. I know some people would do that. Anyways, that’s simply another tale of my life! I hope you guys will enjoy the weekend! J