No doubt....Ex girlfriend...

Hello,

It has been a week now. I accomplished alot of my studies so far...well not alot actually. I only finished my report. It needs some review and correcting though but I am feeling lighter for finishing this report. I must study for my exam now which is next week on thursday. Anyway, I've been studying while listening to music....and let me tell you that my favourite band was No Doubt! XD I remember when their song Don't speak when I was a child. I didn't understand the meaning of their lyrics and I was just humming along. Now that I listen to it once again, the song is totally different to me. It does describe the way I felt on May 23th. I know I promissed to not write about the past...but I feel like writing about it....OK!??!! > : (

 

The song says:

 

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

 

[...]

 

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

 

Oh yeah....I sat there in the bathroom and cried. That was 3 months ago. But wait....don't feel bad for me because I do feel different now. Rejoyce!!! I thought I will never be happy and that I will never fall in love again...all of that, it's not true anymore. I wonder if anyone else reading this blog have gone through this but you have to be positive because you will find someone else! This my favourite verse of the song Ex-girlfriend.

 

You say you're gonna burn before you mellow
I will be the one to burn you

Oh hell yeah!!!! I am the one to burn you dammit!!!! I am watching a japanese drama at the moment and it's called: Rich man poor woman. You must watch it and if you don't, it's blasphemy. Such a romantic drama! *_* I'm like: 'I want to find a nice, kind, and good looking guy like him in this drama!' That's why I should celebrate because I have an opportunity to find that new handsome guy since I'm single! hehe! So today, I was in the subway on my way home and there was this cuuuuuute guy...My heart was bumping really fast. What should I do? I don't know how to flirt. I peeked at him and he peeks back at me. Then I look away really fast...then I peek at him again...and I see him with his eyes closed and a smile on his face. That's when I see Gwen Stefani singing in my face from her song What are you waiting for:

 

Gwen:What are you waiting for? Take a chance you stupid hoe

Me: I can't...I'm nervous @_@

Gwen: Go, look at your watch now. You're still a super hot female
Me: Wahh!! What about if I get dumped?

Gwen: Who really cares 'coz it's your life you never know, it could be great. Take a chance 'coz you might grow
Me: :(

Gwen: Take a chance you stupid hoe

 

So what hapenned at the end? I know you must wonder! Well...I didn't do anything. :( I always thought it was weird for a girl to make the first move like that. It would be more romantic if the guy would actually come to talk to me. My friend Sue would tell me that it's worse for a girl to get dumped than for a boy and it's their job to do it as a guy. So if you got some balls in your pants, be manly and do it! I need a mentor to teach me how to make guys talk to me. URGH!!! Anyway, I think I have more important stuff to think about...like my exam next week! So have a great night and you will probably hear from me next week after my exam. Take care! :D