Bad bad week...

Hi everyone,

 

The title says it all. I had a very bad week. I don't even know where I should start. There were two events that made me anxious and super angry. Let's begin with the school part. So I had this assignment which was due today. Yeah I sent it but the whole final report is just a complete mess. What happened? Urgh... So everything hapenned yesterday. It sucks badly. So I was nearly done with my report. I was at school yesterday morning and I got 2 hours break before my next class begins. So I told myself 'Hmm..I should work on it since I have some free time.' So I went at the computer rooms to see few of my classmates. One girl came to me and asked me to explain her the final part of the assignment. No problem! So I showed the code I worked on and that's when everything got dizzy. Oh yeah! I got dizzy and some cold sweats. She says: 'I think you aren't supposed to write the offset = lnexpo in the gamma distribution. You will get wrong results.' I panicked a little. She pokes another classmate and asks him and he says the same thing as her. Holy crap! For real??? It meant that I had to start over half of my work. Once I got out of the computer room, I called my team and told them about it. Oh yeah! It was a nightmare. One girl was clueless on how to manipulate excel. The other is completely lost in a corn field. Facepalm! As a result we spent the whole night fixing what was wrong. The deadline was 4pm. My head was heavy. I felt like throwing up. You guys just don't get it. I don't want to repeat this class at all cost because the teacher who will be giving it is the infamous one who graded 0% to his students. I am so stress that I became ill. As a matter of fact, I lost an extra 4 pounds. Anyways, I did all the graphs for that girl and the other one sent her part on last minute. When I read her stuff, things were just non coherent. This is just bad. Whatever! It is what it is. I copied the whole thing and pasted into the main report...but guess what! Luck wasn't on my side. When I pasted, the whole things shifted to the right and half the report was vertically missing. What the hell? Why??? I looked at the time. It was 3h58. What should I do? I attached the code file, the main report, and the other part that didn't want to merge in well with the main one. I had to write a stupid note explaining the technical problem. It's all over now. If I fail this class, I believe I'll never get my degree. Anyways, time to move on to the next topic.

 

Ok...this is the most frustrating thing that someone could do to me. Urgh...So I talked to Sue the other day. I talked about myself and some events about here and there. One of the things I told her is about an issue or more of an misunderstanding that hapenned between me and a guy. Yes a guy!!! So she told me: Hmmm I think he has a crush on you. You should clear it out. Talk to him if you have an opportunity.' I'm not sure. I told my mom about it and she said the same thing as Sue. Call him and ask him if his free for a talk. Do you have feelings for him as well? I am not sure. Should I do? So I went on facebook the other day and a friend came chatting with me. He actually came to cheer on me about my break up. We chatted and chatted for long and then he wrote: Go out with new people! Be more sociable. Make yourself look great and everything will come along. It doesn't matter where you go, there will be always be people who will love you. Even the ugliest guy can get a girlfriend. To have feelings, you have to be with him and go out with him sometimesand then....everything will come naturally. You know, I was kind of surprised that I was told that by that friend of mine. He seems so immature but he was absolutely right. So I thought that this was probably a sign from god. lol Should I or not? My mom would't stop poking me to call him. So I decided to contact him. That was some time this week. I texted him and asked if he was free for 15 minutes this week. Am I asking for to much? He replied: I'm busy. Tell me what it is. So I told him: I prefer to talk in person. If you are busy, I can wait. I'm not in a rush. He replies again: I won't have time. I am to busy. What should I do? My phone rings and it's him. O.o I answer the phone and with an annoyed voice he says: What is it that you want to tell me? OMG! Some smoke came out from my ears. Since I am also stubborn I told him: I told you I want to talk in person instead. Don't you even have 15 minutes this week? I'm not asking for much. He says: No I don't! But now I do have time so that's why I'm calling you. So just tell me. ...

 

me: You don't even have a spare 10 minutes? I can't talk right now anyway because I have to work on a report.

him: No I don't have time. Why don't you ask someone else for that favor? I don't have time. So it's right now. Just say it.

me: *curses silently....* You are unbelievable...I'm just asking you for 10 minutes from your entire life and you can't even find that? I am really disappointed in you.

him: .........

me:......*hears nothing from him* Are you there?

him: yeah...

me: I said that you have disappointed me.

him:......

me: Since you are busy and don't have time, forget about it. Go to sleep.

him:......

me: Goodnight

him: ....*in a low voice* goodnight

me: bye

 

Then I hang up the phone. What is this crap? I didn't even have the opportunity to taste rejection. Unbelievable...So you people reading this, what do you think? I nicely and politely asked him to meet when he will be free. Why all the anger on me? What made me mad is not the fact that I couldn't talk to him but rather that he was not tactful. It's ok to be direct but you have to be respectful at some point. Ijust can't believe it. He literally told me to kindly f*ck off! What roasted my patience is when he said it's right now he wants to talk. How can you be selfish? You are not the only one in this world who's busy. I have school and other stuff to do as well. I just wanted to used my teddy bear, tag a his name on it and start voodoo. I'm off to bed now. So goodnight....