Sad romance part 1

Hi everyone,

Every issue I had seems to be solved one by one and I must say that I feel extremely relieved especially regarding this guy who's been calling me recently. For those who are wondering, you'll have to read the post before the last one I made.

 

Long story short, there was this guy who asked my number in the subway. He mentioned that he just wanted to be friends and that's pretty much about it. So he called me afterwards for the second time and that's when the conversation was making me uncomfortable. Anyways, we talked about random things and he kind of asked personal questions. He asked for my age and I told him that I'm 27. He mumbled to himself "Perfect...". What does that mean? He tells me that he is 32 years old and states that he would like to have a family. I suddenly got shivers when he added that he dreamed twice about me. Oh dear! =_= Why do I get myself into these kind of situations? He then asked me if we can ever meet when I will be free? @_@ I just told him off that I was extremely busy and that I will have to see that.

So he would call me every 2 days or so but I haven't answer his calls because I was at work or simply because it wasn't the right time to talk. I kind of felt bad for ignoring his calls. It's true that I'm not interested in him and the best thing to do would be to ignore him. I talked about this issue to different people and I got different opinions. First person I told was Nix. Straight off, he said that I should just tell him that I'm not interested in him. To tell straight to someone that you have no interest in him is damn harsh. But in the end, rejection and sadness are pretty much paired up together. Nix just told me to not let it get to me.

The second person was my mom. I must admit that I was hesitating because she would probably ask me what is his job status and would try to push me to date him. I even had a nightmare due to all the stress that my mom gave me. I dreamed that my mom found me a young doctor for me to marry with. He is good looking, soft, kind, nice, gentle, and generous. But he has a crippled leg. Somehow, I was really against it and refused to marry him. I even planned to run away but mom paid bodyguards to watch over me. In long term, I don't know why but I ended up accepting the wedding. Anyways, let's go back to our sheeps. I asked my mom advice and she told me that whether I liked him or not, I should answer his calls and talk with him. It's really rude to do such thing. I decided it was ok to exchange numbers and I have to take responsibilities. I must say that she is right. She told me to just explain that I just want to remain friends and nothing more than that. Honestly, I did not expect this from mom.

I did take in consideration what they told me. But I just don't know how to tell the guy that I don't like him. Do I just call him and tell him straight off like that? I wanted to indirectly tell him but didn't know how to do so. That's when I had to contact the first person which is Eva. I'm so glad I did. So she gave me few tips.

1. Ask him about his plans for his future. If he says that he wants a family and children, then I should suggest him to find someone who's coming from the same country as him.

2. Tell him about my own plans for my future. i.e. That I'm not interested in being in a relationship right now, want to get my school diploma, etc.

So she did give me some valuable tips. Two weeks or so have past and this guy keeps on calling. I got a call from him again last night. I thought to myself that it is time to put an end to this. I just can't keep this on going. Maybe he wants to use me for some reason or he truly is mad in love with me. His true motive doesn't really matter. I have no right to play around with his emotions and give him fake hope. So I took my cellphone and decided to respond to his call.

It started with a friendly note. He was during his working break. Apparently, he is saving money to pursue his study here and to make a living. After a long conversation, I decided to ask him about his goals of having a family so I can tell him to find a girl of his own culture. But I didn't even have to ask him. He just told me that he has something to ask and it was just as I expected. He honestly asked me if I was willing to give him a chance to go out with him. He explained that he is looking for a woman who is currently looking to have a family. He wants something serious and stable. To be honest, I was really moved by his honesty putting a side his true motive. It takes a lot of guts to ask a girl out. I was truly moved. I really was. So I decided to cut the crap and be honest with him in return. There's nothing like honesty. No excuses or bullsh*t. So I simply told him that I was in a relationship for a long time. I have put an end to those tiring feelings but I somehow need more freedom and independence for myself. I'm just not ready to be in a relationship yet.

I'm glad the conversation ended in a friendly note. I told him to not feel sad and that he will find a fine woman for sure. I feel so relieved that everything ended well. Just when I feel better, I checked my cellphone not to long ago and I got a missed call. O.o  I opened my cellphone and guess who called! It's him again.... To be continued!