Last post before 2014

Dear friends,

 

This is the last post before 2014. Year 2012 was pretty bad and 2013 was shitty as well regarding personal life in general. However, 2014 is all brand new. I'm officially done with school and I have removed and cleaned my friend repertory. I have also changed for the past two years. Old habits and old way of thinking are all in the past.

 

Now, everything will be new and it will be a fresh new start for year 2014. All I need is a new haircut and I will be ready to welcome the new year.

 

Things that I've changed so far during those years:

 

-I'm less patient. Yes I'm still patient overall but I'm not going to endure anymore stupidity from people. If people are making angry, I'm going to let them know. No more bullshit so don't provoke me.

 

-I'm going to trust people even less. It happened once when a co-worker told me that our boss hates skinny people and even condemns them. What does she think about me? So I'm not going to trust people to much. When it comes to men, I will never trust them more than 30%. The only people I will trust are my parents and very few friends that I've known for years or since we were children.

 

-Never depending on anyone. My cousin always taught me to learn how to do things on my own because one day, I will be on my own. Now it's exactly the case. No more boyfriend to depend on and friends also have their on life.

So it will be a new start but I don't know if everything will be fine. So my new year's resolution is to be less naïve. Someone told me once that naïve people are happier. He was right but I am so done on being deceived. The old Gloria has changed and has learned a lot from her past experience. You can never grow up until you go through the storm. Observing and noticing the misery of someone will never be the same as experiencing it. It's like reading a book about gardening. It's good to read and learn about it but if you put it to practice, it's even better.

Else than this, there's a little side story that I have to share. It's school related. So that was about a month ago in November. We had to work on that assignment and it was the last class before the deadline to submit our homework. That being said, it's our last opportunity to ask questions and we did have questions. Our class was done at noon and a tutor is suppose to come help us until 2pm. I was kind of happy because our tutor was my former high school classmate so I feel comfortable to ask anything. So my team and I waited. It was 12h30 and he wasn't there. We continued to wait. It was 1h15pm and still nothing. So it's not a good sign. I sent him an email asking if he is going to come or not because I don't want to waste my time waiting for nothing. So I decided to wait for an extra 15 minutes and I will be off at the teacher's office. So as planned, he didn't come and we went to see our teacher.

 

The teacher was there in the office doing something on his computer. Betty and I were hesitating a little before going in. She was nervously giggling there and I went head on. =_= lol. So he greeted us and asked what we wanted from him.

 

me: Hi Sir! We have few questions concerning the assignment.

teacher: >_> Why don't you go ask the tutor?

me: ...ummm he wasn't there.

teacher: > : ( What!!!??? Oh no this is unacceptable.

me:... @_@

teacher: During the mid-term, I texted him to be on time to be a supervisor just to check on your guys and find cheaters and guess what! He was late!!!

me and betty: :o

teacher: So here's what I'm going to do. I am going to send him an email with your names attatched and he will have to move especially to help you.

 

At that point, I was getting nervous. Yes it sucks that he didn't come but I didn't want to cause him any trouble and on top of that, he's my high school friend. @_@ He will definitely be upset with me.

 

me: Well, that will be unnecessary. I can come tomorrow to consult you instead. That's not a problem.

teacher: No I will send him the email.

 

I'm like "Shit! :O What do I do?". Maybe I could just walk away rapidly without giving him our names. So me and Betty are walking towards the exit. But the teacher was already typing the message on his computer.

 

me: Umm...So we can just go now?

teacher: Yes...the message will be sent.

me:...So you have our names? O.o

teacher: Yeah..O.o You r name is Gloria and your friend over there is Betty. :D

me and betty: :O !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

teacher: I also remember that you failed my class last summer.

me and betty: D: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

teacher: As soon as students give me their exam sheets, I immediately learn their name.

 

Not only that was fucked up but for him to remember us as students that failed his previous class is embarrassing. 

 

Anyways, this will be fun memories to remember. School is over and I kind of miss that. I was used to have something to keep myself busy but now I am officially done. :/ So I will write to you guys next year! I will be busy for new year's with family, shopping, and pampering myself. Oh yeah! So have a great weekend and happy new year's eve everyone! :D Take care!

The beginning of the ending

Hi everyone,

Boy oh boy! There's a lot to write about. I am even sure where to begin. First I would like to give you one mini update related to the previous post. I have calmed down a little about all the frustrations that my ex gave me. It has been exactly a week now and I'm feeling much better. A friend told me this that I'm sooo lucky that I broke up with him and that I dodged the bullet.

 

All I can say it's that everything has been decided. I went to work today and an old man told me that I'm very pretty then said that my boyfriend or husband must be very lucky. I told him that I'm single. He just didn't believe me. I told him about my ex and there was an awkward silence. He said that soon I will find someone fitting me. I just don't want any bullshit guys. Let's be realistic. I told him that destiny has already decided. No matter how you may struggle, there's no changing fate. He agreed.

 

Everything happens for a reason. It doesn't matter how hard I try to fix things up, it will never work if it's not meant to be. All you can do is trying. 

 

Fortunately, fate has decided something that past Wednesday would be the last time I will have to go to school. OH YEAH! YEAH BITCHES!!!! I passed my course! XD I still remember that I was down right after my exam because I wasn't able to finish up and lost at least half of the points because I didn't have enough time to test it and was also crushed by other bullshit. I was praying I won't have to repeat this class again. It was a classmate of mine who texted me to tell that the grades were now available. As I entered my student username and password, I was like: "Dear God, please make me pass. I donated 30$ to an organization that feeds homeless people and I will continue to do so. I will also stop wishing misery to my ex and his previous mistress. I will donate more. @_@ Please, just make me pass. This is just to much. I don't want to go back to school and see the teacher again!!! D: " So that's basically what I wished for just before I clicked enter. Then guess what I see! My final exam grade was 49%...and the class average is 40%. :O Oh yeah! That's the victory dance baby!!!

 

So this means that for now on, I can spend all of my money on matters unrelated to school. That's right! Come on right here! Hello shopping! XD

 

So my next aim is to buy myself a new purse and save up money for eye treatment so I won't have to wear glasses EVER AGAIN. Then I know I will attract all the cute boys! :D

 

So that's all for now. It's bed time and job is waiting for me tomorrow morning. I wish all of you a great week and a happy holidays! :D xxx

Tangled and untangled

Hi everyone,

It has been a while. I know. There were just a lot going on. I wasn't sure of how I should  handle everything at once. I'm just going to start with the stuff that is weighting my heart right now.

 

So last month, my ex remained quiet and didn't contact me for a while which was a good thing. I was busy with school and he didn't disturb me. I also went shopping with my mom, went to see friends, ...I was just enjoying how life is supposed to be. Then one evening, I was in the shower and when I checked my cell phone, there was 8 missed calls from him which is pretty weird. So I called him back...

 

Him: Glo...I need your help.

Glo: What is it?

Him: I need 400$.

Glo: What!?...What the fuck? Where are you right now?

Him: Halifax...

Glo: What the hell? What are you doing there?

Him:....doing some stuff...I lost my wallet. It has been days that I've been sleeping outside.

Glo:...Are you alone?

Him: No I am with two more people.

Glo: ok...how about them? Don't they have money on them?

Him: Not a lot.

Glo: Who are those people?

Him: Just friends...

 

You know what? This just sounds extremely fishy. Going on a trip with broken ass friends. Are you serious? The only thing that could make sense is if he's in fact with a girl. Because the guy always pays and the girl just sits there with her hands wide open to receive the goodies. So anyways, I decided to send him 300$ via western union. Everything is done and I went to sleep.

 

Next morning, he calls me at 7am. Now what? Apparently, he couldn't take the money because the only card he had on him was his license but it does not indicate his date on birth on it. So he sends me his other friend's name which is a girl's name. Good lord! A girl.... So let me sort this out to you. He went on a trip\date with his bitch and lost his wallet. Now, he's asking his ex-girlfriend to help him out to get a room. That's extremely cruel. It's true that I didn't have any much feelings left for him but that was a huge stab to old wounds. Anyways, I still sent him the money because he must be extremely desperate at this point...sleeping in the cold winter is not fun.

 

He promised me to repay me back...today afternoon. I called him and no answer. I called and called countless times like a crazy woman. Finally, he calls me finally at 7pm and tells me that he lost his cell phone but that he could meet me right away. So my mom gave me a lift and I finally meet him. The first thing that I asked was why he didn't call me to cancel our meeting or something instead of leaving me hanging there. After he explained, I felt bad for him. He had an urgent matter so he couldn't call me back.

 

I asked him about the girl with whom he went to Halifax with. He was extremely hesitant. But finally, he spilled it out. She is his new girlfriend. It's hard to explain how I felt. I was kind of sad and jealous but I was expecting this to happen. I didn't cry or anything. I was just staring at the emptiness. It's tiring. It's as if me and him are tangled together. Everything is a mess. So I decided to untangle everything.

 

From now on, don't call or text me anymore. You do not need me anymore and I don't want you to torment me with your new girlfriend. If we are both invited for dinner by common friends, I'll find an excuse to not come or you choose to not come. If you ever see me somewhere, just walk away and pretend you didn't see me. I'll do the same. I just want to end this crap for good.

 

He still insisted that he wanted to stay friends and that he needed my support. What about the support that I get? Trust me on this, it's extremely hard to move on after a long relationship. A lot of people don't understand it. We were together for so long that it became a comfort for me. So he wants me to be there for him for his sorry ass while he has friends and his new girlfriend. Just go to her arms! He does not need me anymore.

 

When I got home, I cooled down a little and I was rethinking about everything again. Was I too harsh? I can't write it in this blog but he's not in a good situation. It's the moment he needs support the most but...I just can't anymore and I believe I have no obligation to support him anymore.

 

His life shattered once when he broke up with me. Now his life shattered a second time because of his heart of greed. People never learn their mistakes until complete failure happens. Anyways, I completed my last exam today and hopefully everything will be fine. At least I am on vacation now. If I had to deal this hot mess before my exam, I think I would of fail my class again for sure.

 

Next post will be happier...I hope...

Trouble with sloppy girl

I had such a shitty week. I have never got so much load of crap all at once. I'll just begin with my job because that's my biggest concern right now.

I believe I mentioned before in a post before about my anger. Trust me on this. My kindness is not granted but the opposite is what people think. So most of it happened during black Friday. My working shift was supposed to end at 4h30 pm and I planned to go shopping with mom afterwards. So it was 4pm and my boss tells me that the other girl will be late and that she should appear around 5h20 at most. "Other girl" refers to that sloppy co-worker of ours. So I had to wait until 5h20 to end my shift.

 

This totally sucks because I planned to go shopping right? My mom calls and asked why I am taking so long to finish. So I waited till 17h30 and she was still late. I continued to work until 6pm and still nothing. it was 6h15 and still no bitch was coming. I was so pissed off. I called my mom and she said that it was not worth going shopping anymore because it was already late. It would take me an hour to get back and it would be time for my mom to make supper. So I told my mom that since I'm at it, I could just finish the entire remaining shift.

 

I thought for a moment...hold on! If I stay, "sloppy girl" will not get scolded and the boss must be happy shopping and have romantic dinner with her boyfriend while I'm working here with a big headache. Screw this big time! > : ( I picked up the phone and called my boss. I tell her about the situation and I can't stay. Seriously! I was supposed to finish at 4h30pm and it nearly 18h30. Let me tell you something. This is not cool. So the boss had to come and complete the shift. I can assure you that when I saw her coming back to the store, she wasn't happy at all.

 

The next shift I had to work with them, I talked to the sloppy girl and this is what she said: "Omg! I thought it was you who would be working when I came to work but it was the boss. I told myself that it's ok if it's you because you are a nice person. But when I saw the boss instead, I was like "Oh shit!"."

 

You know what that means? It means that this girl is taking my kindness for granted. Just because I'm nice and kind doesn't mean I allow people to do this to me. Unfortunately, I got a bigger issue with her last week and this will be discussed with the boss as soon as possible next Monday. So if you guys want to know what is it about and how the outcome will turn out, wait up for next post. Have a great weekend! :D