Last post before 2014

Dear friends,

 

This is the last post before 2014. Year 2012 was pretty bad and 2013 was shitty as well regarding personal life in general. However, 2014 is all brand new. I'm officially done with school and I have removed and cleaned my friend repertory. I have also changed for the past two years. Old habits and old way of thinking are all in the past.

 

Now, everything will be new and it will be a fresh new start for year 2014. All I need is a new haircut and I will be ready to welcome the new year.

 

Things that I've changed so far during those years:

 

-I'm less patient. Yes I'm still patient overall but I'm not going to endure anymore stupidity from people. If people are making angry, I'm going to let them know. No more bullshit so don't provoke me.

 

-I'm going to trust people even less. It happened once when a co-worker told me that our boss hates skinny people and even condemns them. What does she think about me? So I'm not going to trust people to much. When it comes to men, I will never trust them more than 30%. The only people I will trust are my parents and very few friends that I've known for years or since we were children.

 

-Never depending on anyone. My cousin always taught me to learn how to do things on my own because one day, I will be on my own. Now it's exactly the case. No more boyfriend to depend on and friends also have their on life.

So it will be a new start but I don't know if everything will be fine. So my new year's resolution is to be less naïve. Someone told me once that naïve people are happier. He was right but I am so done on being deceived. The old Gloria has changed and has learned a lot from her past experience. You can never grow up until you go through the storm. Observing and noticing the misery of someone will never be the same as experiencing it. It's like reading a book about gardening. It's good to read and learn about it but if you put it to practice, it's even better.

Else than this, there's a little side story that I have to share. It's school related. So that was about a month ago in November. We had to work on that assignment and it was the last class before the deadline to submit our homework. That being said, it's our last opportunity to ask questions and we did have questions. Our class was done at noon and a tutor is suppose to come help us until 2pm. I was kind of happy because our tutor was my former high school classmate so I feel comfortable to ask anything. So my team and I waited. It was 12h30 and he wasn't there. We continued to wait. It was 1h15pm and still nothing. So it's not a good sign. I sent him an email asking if he is going to come or not because I don't want to waste my time waiting for nothing. So I decided to wait for an extra 15 minutes and I will be off at the teacher's office. So as planned, he didn't come and we went to see our teacher.

 

The teacher was there in the office doing something on his computer. Betty and I were hesitating a little before going in. She was nervously giggling there and I went head on. =_= lol. So he greeted us and asked what we wanted from him.

 

me: Hi Sir! We have few questions concerning the assignment.

teacher: >_> Why don't you go ask the tutor?

me: ...ummm he wasn't there.

teacher: > : ( What!!!??? Oh no this is unacceptable.

me:... @_@

teacher: During the mid-term, I texted him to be on time to be a supervisor just to check on your guys and find cheaters and guess what! He was late!!!

me and betty: :o

teacher: So here's what I'm going to do. I am going to send him an email with your names attatched and he will have to move especially to help you.

 

At that point, I was getting nervous. Yes it sucks that he didn't come but I didn't want to cause him any trouble and on top of that, he's my high school friend. @_@ He will definitely be upset with me.

 

me: Well, that will be unnecessary. I can come tomorrow to consult you instead. That's not a problem.

teacher: No I will send him the email.

 

I'm like "Shit! :O What do I do?". Maybe I could just walk away rapidly without giving him our names. So me and Betty are walking towards the exit. But the teacher was already typing the message on his computer.

 

me: Umm...So we can just go now?

teacher: Yes...the message will be sent.

me:...So you have our names? O.o

teacher: Yeah..O.o You r name is Gloria and your friend over there is Betty. :D

me and betty: :O !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

teacher: I also remember that you failed my class last summer.

me and betty: D: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

teacher: As soon as students give me their exam sheets, I immediately learn their name.

 

Not only that was fucked up but for him to remember us as students that failed his previous class is embarrassing. 

 

Anyways, this will be fun memories to remember. School is over and I kind of miss that. I was used to have something to keep myself busy but now I am officially done. :/ So I will write to you guys next year! I will be busy for new year's with family, shopping, and pampering myself. Oh yeah! So have a great weekend and happy new year's eve everyone! :D Take care!

The beginning of the ending

Hi everyone,

Boy oh boy! There's a lot to write about. I am even sure where to begin. First I would like to give you one mini update related to the previous post. I have calmed down a little about all the frustrations that my ex gave me. It has been exactly a week now and I'm feeling much better. A friend told me this that I'm sooo lucky that I broke up with him and that I dodged the bullet.

 

All I can say it's that everything has been decided. I went to work today and an old man told me that I'm very pretty then said that my boyfriend or husband must be very lucky. I told him that I'm single. He just didn't believe me. I told him about my ex and there was an awkward silence. He said that soon I will find someone fitting me. I just don't want any bullshit guys. Let's be realistic. I told him that destiny has already decided. No matter how you may struggle, there's no changing fate. He agreed.

 

Everything happens for a reason. It doesn't matter how hard I try to fix things up, it will never work if it's not meant to be. All you can do is trying. 

 

Fortunately, fate has decided something that past Wednesday would be the last time I will have to go to school. OH YEAH! YEAH BITCHES!!!! I passed my course! XD I still remember that I was down right after my exam because I wasn't able to finish up and lost at least half of the points because I didn't have enough time to test it and was also crushed by other bullshit. I was praying I won't have to repeat this class again. It was a classmate of mine who texted me to tell that the grades were now available. As I entered my student username and password, I was like: "Dear God, please make me pass. I donated 30$ to an organization that feeds homeless people and I will continue to do so. I will also stop wishing misery to my ex and his previous mistress. I will donate more. @_@ Please, just make me pass. This is just to much. I don't want to go back to school and see the teacher again!!! D: " So that's basically what I wished for just before I clicked enter. Then guess what I see! My final exam grade was 49%...and the class average is 40%. :O Oh yeah! That's the victory dance baby!!!

 

So this means that for now on, I can spend all of my money on matters unrelated to school. That's right! Come on right here! Hello shopping! XD

 

So my next aim is to buy myself a new purse and save up money for eye treatment so I won't have to wear glasses EVER AGAIN. Then I know I will attract all the cute boys! :D

 

So that's all for now. It's bed time and job is waiting for me tomorrow morning. I wish all of you a great week and a happy holidays! :D xxx

Tangled and untangled

Hi everyone,

It has been a while. I know. There were just a lot going on. I wasn't sure of how I should  handle everything at once. I'm just going to start with the stuff that is weighting my heart right now.

 

So last month, my ex remained quiet and didn't contact me for a while which was a good thing. I was busy with school and he didn't disturb me. I also went shopping with my mom, went to see friends, ...I was just enjoying how life is supposed to be. Then one evening, I was in the shower and when I checked my cell phone, there was 8 missed calls from him which is pretty weird. So I called him back...

 

Him: Glo...I need your help.

Glo: What is it?

Him: I need 400$.

Glo: What!?...What the fuck? Where are you right now?

Him: Halifax...

Glo: What the hell? What are you doing there?

Him:....doing some stuff...I lost my wallet. It has been days that I've been sleeping outside.

Glo:...Are you alone?

Him: No I am with two more people.

Glo: ok...how about them? Don't they have money on them?

Him: Not a lot.

Glo: Who are those people?

Him: Just friends...

 

You know what? This just sounds extremely fishy. Going on a trip with broken ass friends. Are you serious? The only thing that could make sense is if he's in fact with a girl. Because the guy always pays and the girl just sits there with her hands wide open to receive the goodies. So anyways, I decided to send him 300$ via western union. Everything is done and I went to sleep.

 

Next morning, he calls me at 7am. Now what? Apparently, he couldn't take the money because the only card he had on him was his license but it does not indicate his date on birth on it. So he sends me his other friend's name which is a girl's name. Good lord! A girl.... So let me sort this out to you. He went on a trip\date with his bitch and lost his wallet. Now, he's asking his ex-girlfriend to help him out to get a room. That's extremely cruel. It's true that I didn't have any much feelings left for him but that was a huge stab to old wounds. Anyways, I still sent him the money because he must be extremely desperate at this point...sleeping in the cold winter is not fun.

 

He promised me to repay me back...today afternoon. I called him and no answer. I called and called countless times like a crazy woman. Finally, he calls me finally at 7pm and tells me that he lost his cell phone but that he could meet me right away. So my mom gave me a lift and I finally meet him. The first thing that I asked was why he didn't call me to cancel our meeting or something instead of leaving me hanging there. After he explained, I felt bad for him. He had an urgent matter so he couldn't call me back.

 

I asked him about the girl with whom he went to Halifax with. He was extremely hesitant. But finally, he spilled it out. She is his new girlfriend. It's hard to explain how I felt. I was kind of sad and jealous but I was expecting this to happen. I didn't cry or anything. I was just staring at the emptiness. It's tiring. It's as if me and him are tangled together. Everything is a mess. So I decided to untangle everything.

 

From now on, don't call or text me anymore. You do not need me anymore and I don't want you to torment me with your new girlfriend. If we are both invited for dinner by common friends, I'll find an excuse to not come or you choose to not come. If you ever see me somewhere, just walk away and pretend you didn't see me. I'll do the same. I just want to end this crap for good.

 

He still insisted that he wanted to stay friends and that he needed my support. What about the support that I get? Trust me on this, it's extremely hard to move on after a long relationship. A lot of people don't understand it. We were together for so long that it became a comfort for me. So he wants me to be there for him for his sorry ass while he has friends and his new girlfriend. Just go to her arms! He does not need me anymore.

 

When I got home, I cooled down a little and I was rethinking about everything again. Was I too harsh? I can't write it in this blog but he's not in a good situation. It's the moment he needs support the most but...I just can't anymore and I believe I have no obligation to support him anymore.

 

His life shattered once when he broke up with me. Now his life shattered a second time because of his heart of greed. People never learn their mistakes until complete failure happens. Anyways, I completed my last exam today and hopefully everything will be fine. At least I am on vacation now. If I had to deal this hot mess before my exam, I think I would of fail my class again for sure.

 

Next post will be happier...I hope...

Trouble with sloppy girl

I had such a shitty week. I have never got so much load of crap all at once. I'll just begin with my job because that's my biggest concern right now.

I believe I mentioned before in a post before about my anger. Trust me on this. My kindness is not granted but the opposite is what people think. So most of it happened during black Friday. My working shift was supposed to end at 4h30 pm and I planned to go shopping with mom afterwards. So it was 4pm and my boss tells me that the other girl will be late and that she should appear around 5h20 at most. "Other girl" refers to that sloppy co-worker of ours. So I had to wait until 5h20 to end my shift.

 

This totally sucks because I planned to go shopping right? My mom calls and asked why I am taking so long to finish. So I waited till 17h30 and she was still late. I continued to work until 6pm and still nothing. it was 6h15 and still no bitch was coming. I was so pissed off. I called my mom and she said that it was not worth going shopping anymore because it was already late. It would take me an hour to get back and it would be time for my mom to make supper. So I told my mom that since I'm at it, I could just finish the entire remaining shift.

 

I thought for a moment...hold on! If I stay, "sloppy girl" will not get scolded and the boss must be happy shopping and have romantic dinner with her boyfriend while I'm working here with a big headache. Screw this big time! > : ( I picked up the phone and called my boss. I tell her about the situation and I can't stay. Seriously! I was supposed to finish at 4h30pm and it nearly 18h30. Let me tell you something. This is not cool. So the boss had to come and complete the shift. I can assure you that when I saw her coming back to the store, she wasn't happy at all.

 

The next shift I had to work with them, I talked to the sloppy girl and this is what she said: "Omg! I thought it was you who would be working when I came to work but it was the boss. I told myself that it's ok if it's you because you are a nice person. But when I saw the boss instead, I was like "Oh shit!"."

 

You know what that means? It means that this girl is taking my kindness for granted. Just because I'm nice and kind doesn't mean I allow people to do this to me. Unfortunately, I got a bigger issue with her last week and this will be discussed with the boss as soon as possible next Monday. So if you guys want to know what is it about and how the outcome will turn out, wait up for next post. Have a great weekend! :D

Cold shower

Hello everyone,

It was very cold yesterday. Even with my big winter coat, I felt the cold. I don't know about today though. The weekend is just too short. Maybe it's because I work and go to school during the entire week that I feel like this. So the only time I have for myself is the weekend but I have to study and work on my school assignment. Oh dear...

 

The basement is almost done. My uncle isn't done with painting yet. It's going to take forever. But the plumber came last week to assemble the shower and the sink. So at least there's one part done. The entire basement should be done next year I think. Anyways, the plumber came on Thursday. I was suppose to leave the house at 2pm to catch the bus that day. I was just taking my time to eat breakfast and read my classnote. I was about the wash the dishes but there was only cold water. I guess the plumber turned the hot water off for some reasons. So I was waiting till it was noon and still no hot water. What am I going to do? I need to take a shower before going to work. So I went to do some business in my bedroom just to keep myself busy and when I came back downstairs, the plumber was gone. So I went to the sink and.....no hot water!!! @_@

 

It was 13h30. I just have 30 minutes before my bus come. What do I do? I don't have the plumber's number and I must contact mu uncle to have it. Mom told me that uncle would come fix it after work. But damn, I can't till 17h. I need a shower RIGHT NOW. Mom suggested to skip it for a day. Oh hell no! I ain't going to work stinking like that. So you know what? I am just going to take a cold shower. That's right!!! Don't be a scaredy cat and take your cold shower. So I went there, took a deep breath, and turned on the water. As soon as cold droplets touched my skin, I was like "Fuck this shit!". Are you kidding me? A cold shower on winter? I just can't. I really can't.

 

It was 2h15pm and I missed my bus. Mom told me she could give me a ride to the subway. So I have exactly 1 hour to make up my mind and leave for work. Skipping a shower is just out of question. There was just no choice. I grabbed an empty bucket and an electric kettle. That's right! A bucket and a kettle... So it took around 6 minutes to heat up a full kettle of cold water. So I was there mixing the boiling water with cold water. I had to use something to scoop the water on myself. Good lord! At least I was on time for work. @_@

Have confidence! :D

Hi friends,

Since mom is eating breakfast, I am taking this opportunity to write this post. I am basically busy the entire week. My working schedule has also changed. Not only I work on Thursday and Friday but on Monday and Tuesday as well. for this reason, I have to be careful with school work. We have this assignment to complete as a team but I did half of it by myself. Since this is the only course I have, I don't mind doing a little more to help out. Now, there's just a quarter of the homework left to do. I have to finish up some readings and other stuff.

As for work, everything is ok. The new girl is still all over the place and very sloppy but I've gotten used to it. She's still a nice girl nonetheless. I try to stay out of trouble to really mind my own business at work. There's nothing much to talk about my life right now. All it is about me being busy. The end of it is almost there. I can feel like I can almost grasp my diploma. Just a little more...

 

I talked with Nixy not long time ago. We talked on the phone and I asked about his schoolwork. Apparently, he seemed really happy about it.

 

Nixy: I am a top student in my class! :D

me: Really!? That's very good! :)

Nixy: I get 98 or 100% most of the time. It never happened before.

Me: So what is the class average?

Nixy: ...around 94 or 98% .... XD

Me: lol nixy! You are in the class average. =_= If it was around 60%, then it would be awesome. haha What is there to brag about?

Nixy: hahaha XD

 

Lol. Nixy.....The clock is ticking and he is still planning to leave for Vancouver.

 

What else to update? I had to meet my classmate to help her in English. After a moment, she told me she would come back. So she left and when she did come back, she had bakeries with her! *_* She gave me one of those and it's soooooooo good.

 

 

I swear this is extremely good. It's not heavy and the sweetness is just right. It's called confidence and you can only find it in a store nearby here. http://fr.aupaindore.com/nos-produits/douceurs/délices-du-boulanger/confidence/ You can get more information from this website. There's also the chocolate/orange confidence. I can't wait to try it out. I'm probably going to check it out with Sue since we are both fan to cakes and stuff like this.

 

After school is over, I also planned to meet Melly. Damn! Time flies so fast. Her child was born since last summer and I didn't have a chance to visit her and her newborn. I must do it before the baby grows! @_@

 

Alright, it's time for me to go have breakfast and work is waiting for me unfortunately. I mean it's fun to have more money to spend but I just don't have time to spend it. Anyways, have a great day and I'll try to update whenever I can. I'll also try to keep the posting regularly. Otherwise, I'll just be lazy and you guys will be waiting forever! @_@ xxx Much love! :D

Nightmare

Hi friends,

I know it has been a while I didn't post anything. I actually wrote a post for you guys since November 6t but I didn't have the chance to post it online. Whenever mom was busy wit my laptop, I was just waiting for it. Then whenever she was busy cooking or doing other stuff, I had other things to do.

But since I was so passionate when I was wrote it, I'm still going to post it anyways although it is a little outdated! Have fun reading! :D

I wasn’t really feeling that great since the evening of my exam. For those who don’t know, I do tarot readings. It’s a simple technique to read the future by interpreting random chosen cards.

 

That night, I wanted to know if the result of my exam will be good. So after picking the tarot cards and analyzing everything, there was no specific answer to my question except to wait. So I asked another question about someone else and the cards told me just to wait. What the hell is that supposed to mean? I do random readings again and again and the results go from the “wait” to bad things to happen. I put the cards away and went to sleep. Let me tell you it was the worst nightmare I ever had.

 

So I dreamed that I was at home. Grandma was cooking in the kitchen, mom was watching a drama in the basement, and uncle was about to consult his friend for painting tips for the basement. As he stepped outside the house, he handed me a bag and says that someone sent it to me. After he left, I opened the bag which contained two identical dolls in its box. The thing I first noticed is about the doll which looked exactly like the doll I gave away to charity. I somehow knew that those dolls were not mine for some reason. One doll was wearing a pink dress and the other was wearing a blue one. I opened the box with the doll wearing the pink dress. She has beautiful golden curly hair and has the length of my arm. But as I was inspecting the doll, I noticed that the edges of her dress were ripped a little. As for her facial expression, she was smiling like any other dolls except there were stains under her eyes. When I looked up closely, it was as if her mascara was leaking because of tears. Damn! That’s some creepy stuff. Why would a company manufacture a doll looking like that? Although it was creepy, it was well made. I looked inside the box and found few medallions made of glass. I looked at them just above the doll. Somehow, something appeared on the glass and it was written “Evil”. The other medallion showed “666”. But those messages appear only when I put it on the doll. I immediately knew that those dolls were cursed.

 

I panicked really badly. I called my mom and told her to come at once but she replied to me that she will come in a minute. Meanwhile, I was thinking about what I should do about the situation. You should never touch something cursed because the bad spirits inside the possessed object will be linked to you. So it’s impossible to undo the link. Getting rid of the doll won’t change anything because the bad spirits can still fly and haunt me wherever I go. Maybe I should go visit a medium to ask for some advice? Mom still hasn’t come yet. I went downstairs and I see mom watching her drama.

 

Me: OMG!!! I asked you to come. It’s urgent.

Mom: O.o …I don’t have time for this. I’m watching a drama.

Me: =_= Are you serious? It’s not time for that!!!

Mom: Go and figure out your own solutions to problems. I’m busy right now.

Me: D: Fine! I’ll go ask the neighbor then.

Mom: Go ahead! Be my guest!

 

So I came back upstairs and the dolls were still there. Shit! What do I do? So that’s when I woke up. Why on earth would I dream of someone sending me cursed items? What the hell? I just had a bad feeling about this. It didn’t really happen in reality but only in that dream. I have a feeling that something or someone is trying to send me a message of warning. I went to work and got some minor trouble but it’s not really worth mentioning. I got the result of my exam and it’s alright. I started the school assignment due by the end of this month and everything is ok. I just don’t get it. On Monday evening, my mom’s friend called for a reading because she has a bad feeling about something. So I used my cards again, different from tarot, and predicted that she will be part of a funeral very soon. There were the two jokers in the reading. When those cards appear, it’s definitely something related to death. It was somehow due to someone having bad luck in a certain place that the person in question shouldn’t have go there in the first place. I read for myself and got the same reading. I did it for my mom and she also had the same result. Maybe all of this is related or maybe that damn dream and those random readings are just pure coincidence. If all of these are accurate, something bad should happened soon or later in a range of two months. I’m just going to brush it off because there’s nothing to do about it anyways. Let’s say all of this is pure bullshit then I would have panicked for nothing and cause the phenomena of “law of attraction”.

 

Anyways, I wish you guys goodnight and pure luck! :( *waits patiently for my fate*