Someone very dear to me died last wednesday. I cried and cried and...cried again. That person was me. I was spit on, my trust was raped, and I was kicked in the face. I was hurt. My chest was stabbed a million times. I cried for myself. I pitied myself. I stopped eating. Stopped drinking water. Stopped sleeping. Stopped enjoying the bright sun. I enclosed myself in a dark coffin and continued to cry. I killed and buried myself.
Today is a new day when I woke up this morning and a new person was born again. I am a new Gloria with hope and love to sgive. I kissed goodbye to the old me. I still feel a little sad that I died but I'm glad I can continue on living. I will still cry for the next fw days for my old self but I think I should get back on my feet.
I've learned alot. Your lover can betray you, you can loose a friend, but your parents will love you no matter what. I loved too much, gave too much forgetting that anything is unpredictable. Anything can happen and end right before your eyes. I forgot that important notion and I have to pay the consequences.
This is probably one of the darkest time in my life but I hope I can move on gradually from my own death. The old Gloria is very similar to the new one. However there's something the new Gloria in me learned. This world is disgusting and hopeless. You must accept it how it is and prepare yourself to live in it because you won't survive if you don't.
I want to thank all my friends who consoled me when I was about to die. I'm glad that I have friends who have a good conscious and would never hurt me. Truly thank you!
I will continue to write in this blog! No Worries! Follow the rollercoster of my life.
Pain is love and love is pain...
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