Lovesick

I still feel gloomy since last wednesday. Being dumped isn't fun. I started to eat well last night but I resolved back to the old sad habit. I thought that maybe there is a chance for us to be like before. Until the mistress called me and told me the person I cared for was hurting himself. It hurts me too. I was mad for the cheating but then became sad. The pain in the chest, the tears that come out, and the staring out of the window started all over again. I explained her the poor past of that man and how he was able to stand strong.

When I wake up every morning, it feels like everything was just a bad dream but it isn't. A sad dream... I lost my appetite again. But I still try to swallow the food and wipe my tears at the same time. I am still in denial, still in disbelief.

Today I cried and my mother cried as well. Wait a minute... Why did she cry? Because she really wanted us to be together. Why did he has to give up to quickly? It's that mistress damn it!!! >:( I really curse the day she met him. I guess we were not distined to be together. I want to go against destiny and decide of how my life should end.

Well...it's not easy for me, not for my mother, not for his mother, and not for him. Let's all grow up stronger silently. Read my blog my dear. Do not neglect yourself my dear. Believe in my words my dear. Trust me my dear. To know happiness, you must know sadness.  I'll be watching you! *_*

This is like my online diary and it feels great. I promess you that next post will be more fun! I already have a topic in mind. :P Stay tuned because all of you will be like 'ZOMG' @_@ Hint: Belieber! haha XD

This stupid strike is making me insane. I wonder when it will stop. I just want to finish school and get going with other things. ..Hey!! LOOK!!!

Beautiful isn't? If you are tired, sit down for a bit. When you are done thinking and crying, continue to walk because there's a path waiting for you! :) So this post is dedicated for you my dear! XD