Happy Easter!

Hi friends,

 

So it's easter today right? I wasn't really sure because I'm buddhist. Oh wait....was it yesterday?  But still...Happy Easter! :D I know my dad will be going to church today and I know I will be waiting for chocolate bunnies on tuesday! :D

 

This post will be short though. It's a mini-update of my daily life. My mom is feeling much better now and I'm super happy that she is. She can't make quick movements with her head yet or she will be dizzy. But no more gastro. :3 Despite the happy tone I've set, I am really on edge. Exams are in 3 weeks and I'm going nuts. So much to do and little time to finish. Thank me that I haven't done things in last minute. Otherwise, I'd be totally toasted. So I've been turning down evening's out invitation and I am limited to quick 15 min-ich friend calls. This post is also be reduced as you can see.

 

Anyways, everything is back to place so I can breath a little now. My post will be less frequent also due to my exams. :/ I hope you guys will be enjoying this long weekend and make sure you don't overdose yourself with chocolate bunnies alright? So take care! :)

 

ps...Wish me good luck for my study marathon. @_@

 

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Mama, I love you...

Hi everyone,

So things have not been to great lately. Everything was fine until sunday morning when mom didn't feel well. Long story short, we called an ambulance and went to the hospital. After spending the afternoon there, the doctor said it was gastro. We came back home in the evening and she went to rest. She is feeling better today but she stays in bed most of the time. I think she will recover in a few days.

My mom is the backbone of the house. I got to admit that she works really hard and does her best. She wants me to focus on my studies and she would take care of the rest. I had nothing to worry about. Now that she's sick, she can't be the backbone for a while. Guess who it is now? It's me. I feel really nervous by all the stuff have to do. I have to take care of mom (which I don't mind), but I have to cook, take care of granny because she is beginning to feel sick as well, and my uncle is following the same path as her. My studies must be delayed so I don't know how I can catch up to all of this. Granny and uncle should not be sick because I'm not in a position to take care of everyone.

There's a lot to say. Granny doesn't stay put. She goes here and there, cleaning, and washing. Then, she complains that she doesn't feel ok. Well, how about you reduce the unecessary things or just postpone your activity grandma? My uncle comes from work at five and his meal has to be done. Honnestly, I would just cook for myself and mom becasue she's in bed. My grandma insists on cooking for him which I have an obligation to do it for him as well. =_=

What more? The telephone. lol I swear everytime it rangs, I get edgy. The last person I want to talk with is my dad. I understand he's worried about my mom and everything but he doesn't need to call twice a day. Give me and mom a break. She's not in a mood to talk and she just wants to rest. What is it so difficult to understand. So I doing something for grandma and my cellphone is ranging. It's dad...again. =_= The thing that annoys me the most is when people give advices that make no sense at all.

Person A: Oh! Your mom is sick? Tell her to mix salt with orange juice. It will help her. She needs to be hydrated
Me *What!?* Ummm but isn't salt supposed to make her dryer?
Person A: No. Just follow my instructions.

Person B: If there's anything she needs, tell her to call me. Give her my phone number!
Me: What do you mean when you say by 'if she needs anything'?
Person B: I mean like if she feels like fainting, or she doesn't feel well...
Me: well...ok
Person B: Do you have a paper and pencil? I'll give you my number.
Me: That won't be necessary. I already have your number in my cellphone.
Person B: No write it down right now and give it to her.
ME: ...

What the hell is going on? If my mom doesn't feel well, she MUST call 911.

Dad: Do you have school today?
Me: No.
Dad: Good! Take care of yoru mom.
Me: I am.
Dad: Tell her to *urgh not again @_@* eat light food. Did the doctor give her any medecine?
Me: No.
Dad: How come? The doctor should at least give her something.
Me: Well, that's what the doc said. *Ten he scolds me as if I didn't want to give her any prescriptions. What the hell? I'm not a doctor so how am I supposed to know? The doctor said she will be ok and she just needs to rest well and drink water. He's the pro and he spent more than 10 years of his life to become a doctor. So how about we trust him?*
Dad: Do you have school tomorrow?
Me: Yes.
Dad: Skip it and ake care of yoru mom.
Me: ....Do you want me to skip my class on thursday as well?
Dad: You should.
Me: Then next week's class as well?

I mean, yes I'm glad people give advices and want my mom to recover fast but if you can't be of any help, don't tell me what to do! Why doesn't he come here and help as well instead of giving me orders? Anyways, I'm just pissed on so many levels. Let's not go any further than this! I am doing my best here! OK!!!??? > : (

Anyways, I hope mom will feel better tomorrow. I love her and seriously, I'm sacrificing a lot for her so it really bothers me when people talk as if I did nothing. Here uncle! Eat your burnt dumpings!!!!

Movie or reality?

Hi everyone,

 

I can't say if I was happy or mad today. Maybe a mix of both...after thinking for a while, I was more angry than anything. So I went shopping with a friend today because she really needed to clear out her mind. We talked...and talked...and THEN we discussed about something a little more serious. She told me a past event she went through. I can't give out the entire details but I will make this short. One day, she got beat up in the car right in the middle of a crowd. That person beated up with fists! That is unacceptable. That's one thing. But what made me speechless is the fact that she yelled for anyone to call 911. What hapenned? Nobody called nor tried to help her. Instead, they stood there and watch the whole thing. What the f*ck!?

 

Oh yes, I can say it again! WTF!!?? Someone needs help and you just stand there and watch? Not a single soul called 911. Not a single soul tried to stop! Not a single soul said anything. The things that was missing were chairs and popcorn for everyone. It's just so dumb. This isn't a movie but it's real life!!! Either they are watching this as if it's entertainment or they are just to in shock to do anything. Well guess what? You should snap out of it! It's not the time to be a pussy let this pass by. Maybe it's a lack of reflex...I don't know. She went to her job nd later authoroties came because her coworker contacted one for her. 

 

However, it's not the case for me. It hapenened once when someone was riding on his bicycle at full speed, bumped into something, and the person was projected to the ground. The cars stopped and what did they do? They did teh same thing as they did with my friend. They stared at the poor guy. Is there blood? Is he dead? Silly! My mom also stopped her car.

 

Mom: Is he ok?

Me: I don't know. *looks behind if someone would actually go and see if he's ok....nobody did it*

Mom: He's actually an old man. (yeah he must be something in his 80's or so...and still, nobody went to check on him. They all caused a trauffic and watched the whole thing)

Me: I can't believe this...I'll go see him.

 

So I went to see if he's ok. He told me he was fine. I helped him getting up and picked up the groceries taht fell from his bike for him. I mean, I can't believe this. This world is really beyong salvation.

 

Now I am not saying that everyone is like this. I was a victim twice and I was helped during both times. The first one was when I was hit by a car. I don't know if I ever wrote about this on the blog but I guess I'll write about it again. So to make it short, I was crossing the streets and a car drove straight in my direction. The bumper hitted my backbone tail. My body was flat on the ground and my right shoe was 7 meters away from me. It all hapenned so fast and it took me a while to realize of the situation. My ex, when I was with him, came to me.

 

Ex: Are you ok?

Me: No! It hurts! *tries to get up but can't. Tries one more time with his help but I fell back.*

 

All the cars stopped at every intersection but all of their heads were bent down and talked on the phone. After a moment, a guy popped out of nowhere and tried to lift me up but it was just way too painful for me so I asked him to put me back down. But at least, he deserves a medal for at least trying to help me. After a while, an ambulance and the police came. I wasn't able to do anything because I was in shock...well isn't it obvious here? I'm the victim here!!!

 

The second time I was helped was when I was physically abused in the streets. I remember it was winter and that person, not saying any names, kept on pushing me into the snow. My wrists were hurted and I remember my vision was blurry because of all my tears. So this hapenned for a couple of minutes. Suddenly a man in his 40 or 50 came.

 

Hero: Hey! Stop treating her like that!

 

We both looked at him.

 

Me: :O

The asshole: :O

 

I pushed the asshole's hand away from me.

 

The asshole: I wasn't hurting her...

Hero: I observed the two of you for a while and that's not like what you said. You kept on pulling an pushing her. She was even tryign to fight back. Look at her! She's even crying!

The asshole: How can you judge the situation? You don't even know why we came to this.

Hero: It doesn't matter what the situation is, you should never treat a person that way. If something doesn't work out, you talk bout it. You don't force the person to go your way. If she doesn't hare your point of view, just let it be.

 

The hero turns into my direction and said: If there's anything you want to talk about or if I can help you with, please let me know.

 

All I can remember is that I kept weeping my tears. I slightly bowed to him by tilting my head as a sign of thank you. If I opened my mouth to talk, the only sound that would come out would be me crying. Do you know how I feel about all of this? It feels embarassing. I feel cheap. I feel like a chopping board. If I can ever meet him again, I would like to thank him in person. I will never forget what he said. So in both situation, I had people who helped me. So why did nobody helped my friend?

Shake it!!! XD

Hi everyone!

The week has started and I sure have a busy schedule which consists of studying as usual. Right now, it's time to literally cut the crap and work hard to pass everything. So what do you think I did today? Studying? No....of course not! I went to a bar. XD

Yeah! I know I should stay at home studying on a monday evening but that's not how it turned out. However, I am not ashamed to say that I'm glad I went there. That place is called La distillerie.

http://www.pubdistillerie.com/v2/index.php

So my cousin works there and she asked me many times to visit her. I wanted to go there but I was busy all the time with exams. By the way, I am still sick. The coughing is a problem. But enough is enough. It's time to go visit her and see what this place is all about. She suggested me to go on a monday instead because it is less busy and she could come sit next to me and have a chat with us. Since i don't have class, it fitted my schedule. It's also ok to take a break once in a while right?

When I told my mom that I am going to a bar, I expected her to flip out because asian girl aren't suppose to go to such places. I explained to her that it's not what it seems. So after all, she decided to tag along. @_@ LOL! We parked the car and went inside. The music was loud but fun. As soon as the waiter saw us, he welcomed us with a big smile. As soon as my cousin saw me, she also welcomed and waved at us to sit next to her.

We talked a bit and finally, it was her time to shine! Since we sat at the bar, we could see the awesome moves of the bartender. Even my mom was impressed. ;o What did we order? :)

I know the quality of my picture is a little dark! Sorry about teh qulity of my cellphone. *_* But it was great! Most of their specialities are served in a masson jar. The red drink on the left is really good. That was my mom's. It tasted peaches and strawberry. It also has a pinch of almond. Well, I was simply eavesdropping when the bartender was coaching my cousin. There was more ingredients but I don't know they were.It was absolutely wonderful. Once sip and you would be inan exoctic country. It didn't contain alcohol though since my mom didn't want any in it but it still tasted great. As for the jar in the middle, it's Goldfish salted cookies! XD The brown drink on the right was mine. It's a creamy drink with a little hint of alcohol. My cousin peaked at my mom while she was sipping her drink and winked at me! :P Mine consisted of brown beer,bailey's, cream, and other stuff that I can't remember. She added maple syrup at the end... If i could describe the taste of it in one word, that would be love.

You must give it a try. Our drinks were customized so they aren't in the menu. Well mine was in it but it was modified to my taste. So it's great. You can make different combination and even my cousin told me that you could bring your own ingredients to make your drink. If you don't like alcohol, that's ok because you can also have your drink alcohol free just like my mom's.

Would I go there again? Yes!!! I asked my mom the same before we entered the bar and she said no because it's in downtown and it's far from home. Then I asked her one more time when she finished her drink and she said YES with a big smile! ;) The employees are very friendly and we really had a great time.

So this is a great way to start the week. Enjoy! XD

Stupid or just naive?

Hi everyone,

 

The week has been the same as usual. I've been doing my school stuff, replying to some emails from friends. It's great to keep in touch with everyone. There's even a guy I haven't seen since college who congratulated me via email after seeing my picture on facebook. But from all the emails I answered, most of them were advices related.

 

I am asked the same thing again and again.........and again. I realized something which is a fact. I have this girl friend who's having problem moving on from her boyfriend who's your typical waste of oxygen. Well, everyone will come across this problem soon or later. It doesn't matter if you're a man or a woman, there will be a time when it will be hard to part with someone. What happens when your girlfriend or boyfriend cheats on you or did something wrong? Everyone would tell you to just move on. -Leave him. You can do things on your own. - She's a ***** for cheating on you. Just dump her. - The list goes on. I noticed something very crucial. It's easier said than done. Well, it's the obvious thing to say isn't it? Another thing I noticed, people who just tell you to move on never had a relationship before or their relationship is doing well and they never have any problems.

 

Trust me on this. Breaking up is hard because you are removing someone from your life. This means that you will never be with this person ever again. This is a person we are talking about and not an object. When there's something we don't need anymore, we just throw it away or recycle it. If it breaks, you simply buy a new one. After all, those are just materials so there isn't emotions attached to it. When you have to part from someone, this is a different story because there are emotions involved. That being said, we are humans and not robots. I wish there was a button I could press on my body to not be in love anymore or to not feel sad anymore. You can't control emotions or feelings.

 

I remember a certain woman who proudly claimed that if her husband ever cheated on her, she would leave him immediately. Ok... Years later, her husband cheats on her. At the end, she ended up begging him to stay instead of kicking him out. You will never understand the true pain until you go through it. You just observe the person crying because his partner left him and you think - pfft...just leave her.- We, the victims, are the loser. The observer is the winner. I definitely don't want to be the loser but some things can only be understood by the loser. Those are lessons that the winner cannot understand but can only notice. How does it feel to have cancer? I notice that it's extremely difficult for them but I can't say for myself because I'm not in that situation. You only see but can't understand unless you walk in his shoe. That's my point.

 

I'm ashamed to say that I did beg my ex to come back to me during the first week of our break-up but luckily I was able to move on really fast. Some people can move on fast like me. Others might take more time to move on and some might end up heart broken for the rest of their lives. It's never easy. Solutions that work for me doesn't mean it will work for others. It really takes time. There's no magical potion to feel better.

 

I was thinking the whole night yesterday. Ever since my break up, I promised myself to never be in a relationship again. The reason is simple. I'm afraid to be heartbroken again. It's a terrible feeling. I don't want to be hurt. I don't want to feel pain anymore. So like this, I might end up single for the rest of my life. But I noticed something else: risk is an opportunity. If you never take a risk, you will remain stagnant in whatever you do. I am going to a tangent line here.

 

If there are people who have not been in a relationship before, take this post as a warning because you might be the next victim. There's nothing you can do to avoid it but the only thing you can do is to be prepared for it. You need to be hurt in order to have life experience anyways. Experience is a cruel teacher who tests you without a warning. So are we stupid or naïve? None. We just have issues controlling our emotions.

 

Today and yesterday, I patiently helped a friend. I hope this friend will get better. So my study break is over. I hope you will have a great weekend. :)

Negativity is a plague

Hi everyone,

So we have to change the time now and spring is there soon or is it here already? Anyways, I'm glad it will be warmer so I can put aside my heavy winter coat and boots. But still, be careful with the weather. I'm still recovering from the flu and I'm going to meet the doctor next week anyways. I am overly tired and the headaches are a real pain.

So I want to write about negativity. It really is something that turns me off and I have this problem with a classmate. So we just had our exam and everything turned out bad right? She keeps on winning all the time. -This class is way too hard.-There's no way we can make it.-We should've taken a different class instead.-I'm thinking or dropping this class and you should consider it.- bla bla bla

Really? It's true that it isn't easy but I hate it when people can't stop complaining all the time. Whatever you do, wherever you go, nothing is easy. There isn't any shortcuts. You think you will have it easier by escaping the issue but it won't solve anything. You pick up a different course, you will be presented to new and different problems and challenges. So after all, we finally got our grades for our exams and the results aren't really pretty...well especially for me. So she dropped the class because she didn't get a good grade and wants me to tag along? Are you nuts? Just because YOU  give up, doesn't mean that I have to follow the same path as you. Whatever is you do is your decision and your choices. Wtf? Anyways, it will be extremely hard for me to pass all my courses but what choices do I have? I also discussed with my teacher and he told me the same thing. He said it will be difficult to pass but it's not impossible. That's right. This is my last semester and these are the last courses I have. I am going to push myself to work hard on it.

Anyways, I don't like negativity and this girl is simply bringing my moral down. I could give it but what would happen if I did pass? Complaining and throwing a tantrum won't take me ahead in life. It won't make me understand the class material any better. So why should I just give up? I want to give it a try and if it still doesn't work out, then too bad. I'll have no other choice but to come back on autumn. Giving up has always been easier than persevering. I just hate it when people are failing, they drag other people along with them. Why do they do that? Because you don't want to look like the lone loser? Sigh. Anyways, when I told her I didn't drop the class, she thought for a moment and said: 'I regret dropping it. It doesn't seem that hard. I just didn't study enough.' >_>

You will meet negative people in the future if you haven't yet. When they fail, they will probably try to drag you down along with them. Maybe it's because they really don't want to look like a lone loser or they don't want to see you sucess. When they give up and see you success, you know that person will feel bitter towards someone who didn't give up. Just don't let anyone decide of your own fate. If you want to give up, that's ok too. I mean we always have situations where we don't have a choice but to give up. It must be a personal decision and not a group choice.

I'm done with my rambling. If she ever throws me another negative comment, I'm afraid I'm going to ask her kindly to shut her mouth. :) Oh yeah! I feel much better now. So a new week begins tomorrow and I will be distributing food to homeless people. I made a promess to do this if I ever pass all my courses from last semester. I didn't have time to do it but tomorrow I will. Maybe that's why I'm doing bad this semester...extemely bad. God's wrath for not keeping my promess. :( So have a nice week. :D

Nothing Helps!

Hi everyone,

It has been a while I didn't post anything. There isn't much to talk about the past few weeks. I stayed at home in front of my computer studying my ass off. Studied, studied, and studied. I didn't breath fresh air for the entire spring break. Instead, I was solving math problems such as:

For a tyrannocaur with a taste for scientists:
i) the number of scientists eaten has a binomial distribution with q = 0.6 and m = 8.
ii) the number of calories of a scientist is uniformly distributed on (7000,9000).
iii) the number of calories of scientists eaten are indpendent, and are independent of the number of scientists eaten.

Calculate the probability that two or more scientists are eaten and exactly two of those eaten have at least 8000 calories each.

Ohhh sweet Buddha! So yeah...I tried to solve 600 problems like that in two weeks which was impossible. I was suppose to review yesterday but I was so fed up with all of it that I couldn't do more. @_@ So today was the examination day and it was mad hard. T.T Can you believe that? Two weeks of marathon non-stop and nothing was fruitful. Anyways, I talked to my classmates and it seems like it was hard for everyone. There was about 23 questions and we could only solve up tp 12. I'm kind of nervous because I don't want to come back to school this autumn since I'm supposed to finish everything this summer.

Anyway, the exam ended and I had to finish up an assingment. So I went to the computer lab to work on it and I inserted my key usb into the computer. The thing is that computer is almost to the ground level. Few of my classmates came back and forth to discuss about the work and want opinions. 30 minutes later, I looked at my usb and it looked crooked. O.o Why is it crokked like that? When I removed it, the key usb is kind of bent which means that someone who came talking to me must of kicked it without knowing. I was so pissed. The file I was working on was on the desktop anyways but there were pictures and projects inside my usb. T.T Why? All of those are completely lost. forever.

I'm just so pissed but at least I'm done with my exams. I have class tomorrow and then I plan on resting during friday. I need to catch back the hours of sleep I missed. Not only that, I'm still sick. It's this coughing. I finished a bottle of coughing syrup and 3 weeks later, I'm still sick. Coughing non stop. Even my grandmother has recovered. It's pathetic. Everytime I open my mouth to talk, my throat tickles and then you know the rest.

Despite all these myseries, I expect comfy slpeeing on friday, shopping on saturday, and meeting for comics on sunday. 8D <--- Nerd! hehe

So I hope you guys had a great springbreak or enjoy it if you are on it. Bye! :)